real advice

1. Be the best possible version of yourself.
2. Do what gets you paid. Or as my brother says, follow the greens so you can do your dreams.
3. Use your brain, not necessarily your heart.
4. The sooner you start, the better a shot you have at making it.
5. Learn the rules of the game.

reminder: 

stop analyzing everything

ichigo ichie

I've learned to truly value the time I have to relax.

reminder:
NEVER be a complacent teacher.

reminder:

be a go getter.

science fair

When two qualified friends want to lead an activity, it's fun. When one friend aggressively wants to take control, the whole process becomes significantly less enjoyable. I do not want a competition. However, it seems like my motives for becoming chair is a stupid one. I've always been the one to help out; I've never really been the leader when I know I am capable of doing the work. Perhaps it's my inferiority complex speaking, but I think I just want to be chair for the title, and I do not want that to be my motive. 

When I first found out that I was assigned to help lead the science fair, I was genuinely excited because science is one of, if not my favorite subject to teach. And working with my friends made it all more exciting knowing this was was going to be similar to a college project. Now, it seems as if we're competing to be chair. It bothers me to think about it. 

...And then I think of rice -- 

specifically, Rodney's poem in high school that he made for a class. When asked to create a poem and describe yourself using food, Rodney chose rice. He does not have to be the main course. He just wants to feel wanted. Or needed. 

head deacon

22 years of being a head deacon's daughter. I sometimes wondered how my life would have been had I not grown up with a head deacon as a father. All the freedom not being closely watched, all the impulsive decisions without thinking twice about my parent's offices, all the mistake I would have committed. However, I believe my dad becoming a head deacon was one of the best things that had happened for my family. I think many of our blessings stemmed from that, but it was not until one service this year with Brother Gino that I realized just how blessed my family was. It all made sense. 

I am no longer the daughter of a head deacon. I just found out today. I am okay. I just hope my parents will be. 

five things in 2020

five things you will find if you open my bag:

1. wallet

2. phone

3. lipstick

4. tablet

5. blotting sheets

five things in my bedroom:

1. books

2. hair straightener

3. printer

4. L-glutamine and Magnesium supplements

5. Kiggleton

(changed) five things I want to do in my life:

1. get married

2. have kids

3. get my doctorate's degree

4. go to Disney Sea with my husband

5. chill in a private onsen 

five things that make me very happy:

1. seeing my students improve

2. outdoorsy stuff: Tinago Falls, spontaneous beach days, traveling

3. a good book/film/song

4. being stupid with my friends

5. hygge and relaxing

five things I'm currently into:

1. watches

2. Jane Iredale makeup

3. medium-cooked steak and good salmon

4. dark chocolate (70% or above) with less sugar

5. Moleskine notebooks and planners

five things on my to-do list:

1. MAT: read chapters 4 and 5, and create two presentations for ED607, finish my curriculum map and proficiency scales for ED618/648

2. FES: lesson plan for the week, and create an emergency lesson plan for Thursday because of Robotics training, go to National Office Supply to buy labels for class laptops so I can start teaching computer ed., and fix up LiveBinders for 2nd grade 

3. personal: wash my make up brushes, sleep earlier, clear my skin

4. financial: pay parents back for this MAT spring 2020 semester, have enough saved up for a wedding and potential second floor, and reach my savings goal for 2020 (I currently did reach my savings goal, but we'll see if it stays the same or grows by the end of this year). 

5. learn to apologize before getting married (nice lesson by Bro. Jaey in today's kadiwa meeting)

five things people may or may not know about me:

1. I don't cry easily anymore

2. gluten, soy, sugar, and dairy make me break out

3. I can get very competitive

4. I know a thing or two about acne

5. I find both women and men attractive

five things I am afraid of:

1. the ocean, still

2. lizards and rats

3. wrinkles and acne

4. not being prepared for a presentation 

5. failing

five things in 2010

10 years

10 years ago I was 15. I am now 25. So much has changed in these 10 years. I think the biggest change was me. Thanks to Blogger, I am able to see those changes, and I could truly say I have grown so much. To quickly summarize these ten years, I have been through innocence, heartbreak, depression, carelessness, confusion, a sense of freedom, passion, betrayal, independence, and currently I am trying to rebuild myself. 

I would say some of the major events that brought the biggest changes were

- Lucky and Glenn

- The Secret

- working at Hotdog on a Stick

- my friendship with Regina

- losing Rodney and then becoming friends again

- Gilmore Girls

- Tori

- working at Dr. M's dental clinic

- Dr. Bowman's class 

- being cheated on

- working at FES

- Adrian

10 years from now, 

I will be 35. I have some expectations. 

1) married.

2) kids.

3) master's degree. Maybe two? Or a doctorate's?

3) have another source of income besides being a teacher

4) still INC

I am thankful for every experience I had -- the good and the bad. And for every experience yet to come, (I hope) I'll be thankful. 10 years ago, I used to be afraid of the future. Now, I'm excited.